The Best Gift for Teacher's Day

今天收到最好的教師節禮物是一位學生的微笑。嚴格說起來，我只教過他一天，然後他就被調去資源班，嗯...我想在普通班他是slow learner，而在資源班應該比其他同學情況好很多。也忘記為什麼對他有印象，好像一開學不知道什麼事情，所以叫他把名字寫在我的課本上，會記得這位學生是因為他的筆跡，大大的、寫的時候一筆一畫慢慢畫下，跟他講話一樣，很慢、很慢，好像每句話都要思考一番才能順利表達自己的意思，但是你可以感覺他的靈魂跟心思，像河流一般，有溫度、有聲響並且流動，比起許多一般的學生而言，其實更惹人疼惜。不知道為什麼，有時候看著國中學生，總覺得許多人的眼睛是空的，好像沒有靈魂、好像智障，你跟他們說話時他／她們不願意注視你的眼睛，不願意做任何承諾（例如：願意把單字記好、把作業寫完），甚至你跟他們說話時，他們也不回答，就是一雙空洞的雙眼，失焦與放空，令你感到挫敗，苦口婆心說到最後，反而覺得自己才是智障。

而今天聯課放完DVD，下課在手忙腳亂收拾筆電和喇叭時，那位學生出現在我面前，可能是好奇觀察我在做什麼，手忙腳亂中，他幫我把單槍切熄，被我拉了一半縮不回去的投影幕，他補拉了一下，布幕咻地一聲縮回去了，抬頭看見他靦腆的笑容，天知道！霎時我心裡多麼感動。跟他說了謝謝，他害羞得跑掉了XD 我想今年最好的教師節禮物，就是他的順手幫忙以及瞥見他的微笑。而之前在辦公室，曾聽見職員提過那位學生的名字，她們說，他的哥哥在另一所國中的資源班就讀，每天放學，他都要走去另一所國中接他哥哥回家，比起他的哥哥，苔的自理能力很好...。孩子，命運的手好不公平，如果世界上有神祇，我希望他賜福給你，即使他關了你某些窗口，卻不會忘記留給你其他光明。

開學了

還在學校唸書時，修了教程，那時還不知現在要考進公立學校的教職是多麼競爭的一件事，只是耳聞流浪教師頗多，總覺得自己應該還不太差，應該OK吧！自己下場玩了一回教甄大戰，哈~ 原來「不差」只能當墊底，「優秀」還不夠，畢竟考試還有運氣成分以及一些些不為人知的黑箱作業，要「非常優秀」才能擔保可以脫穎而出。

陰錯陽差卻也算幸運考進了國中教書，雖然只是一年的代理聘約，但對菜鳥老師來說，要得到第一次的機會總是比較難，畢竟學校願意捨棄其他有教學經驗的老師，聘用我這隻菜鳥XD Honestly,我很感謝這間學校，畢竟在教學上我還很菜，教材不熟、skill也不夠...，但是有了第一次機會，以後就不難了~ practice makes better. 再者，自己唸書唸爛就算了，但是教書教爛，這個罪孽比較大XD

第一年在公立學校教書，開課(per week)：
7和8年級，各2個班=16堂
數資班第8節課=1堂(18週課程自己設計)
聯課活動=1堂(16週課程自己設計)
綜合輔導=1堂(其實我不知道這是三小?and為何我要教這個...)
--------------19堂

希望開學第一週自己不會就啞掉，畢竟現在每天開口說話不超過30分鐘=_=

最後，建議學校招聘老師最好還是考一下試教，不要只考選擇題筆試跟英文口試...
我真的不確定，學生是否可以看懂我在黑板寫的字...god bless me and my students.

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An Anthology of Wander

2011.06.16

I just finished the exam for teachers’ recruitment held by Loudong Senior High School and had a rest at McDonald’s near Loudong night market. At noon the McDonald’s is full of junior high school students wearing in uniforms, chatting, brawling and grabbing fries into their mouths on seats. Today is the graduation ceremonies of many junior high schools in Yilan, students who flock to McDonald’s in clusters can be distinguished by their various uniforms. New published commemorative albums are opened and put on tables; they discuss about the pictures on the album that who are handsome, who are beautiful and who are ugly ducklings but like to act in realizing what fashion is. Loud conversation without mind of being overheard; on the contrary, they just want the neighboring to hear it; for example, the splendid Taipei City s/he has visited and one day very possibly s/he will stay there for living. Moving northwards to Taipei means the more approaching to the prosperous future and those failures just can go nowhere or move southwards; however, kids someday you will understand that you could walk on the most luxurious and shining street in Xinyi district any time you like, but probably you could not afford to buy even a tiny flat there all your life. After paying your mobile phone, cable, power bills and rent as well as devoting your salary to the movie theaters and sometimes fancy restaurants, you have a slim purse at the end of a mouth. Day after day, you are the same staying with the prosperous but you don’t belong to it. Capitalists and the government won’t speak for you. One makes good use of your manpower and deprives of the surplus you made after that; the other imposes a tax on your dismal income. Will you one day miss the beautiful hometown you’ve eager to leave when you’re young? It is still there and goes nowhere, but I’m here and plan to go swimming in a pool in a park alone in the afternoon, rewarding myself with the cool water after the exam and there will be few "burghers" blocking my lane in the pool in this place.

Don't Look Back

The green bird flew away.
Hey! Don't look back!
Or you will be frozen!
Or you will be entangled!
Only when the palm is opened,
It will be possiblly refilled again.
Though some thing must be falling apart,
That might be what you've striven to hold.
But that's life
With the sun rising and falling day and night.
Thus don't look back.
Just go ahead!

the art of teaching

Teaching is an art I am still learning.

early birds

大約還在一個月前，每天都還是十點起床(有時十二點)
實習之後，每天都七點起床，最近要開始導師實習，哈~
要再調早一個小時起床XD

當個晨間型的人的夢想，在唸研究所時，實現的天數用十根手指頭數得出來
想不到如今卻輕輕鬆鬆達成，雖然有一半是迫於不得不
但畢竟這樣渡過了一個月，我想我會習慣

現在的日子很簡單
也很珍惜這樣的生活方式
也許就這樣一個人活到老
如果身旁多了一個人出現在生活裡，也滿驚悚的XD
畢竟我從來沒過過那樣的生活

如果韶光易逝，那麼該用什麼當作生命的座標呢？